Saturday, September 24, 2005


I have experianced a miracle in my life today. And am proud to say it. I truly believe that after a couple came and prayed for my lips to heal, during the next day my lips cleared up wonderfully! all the nasty scabs came off with no sign of them ever being there. Here is a couple of pictures just to show you the true miracle that God has performed on me. I am so grateful to Him.

The doctors have given us some bad news recently. I have considered it, and the more I thought about it, the more worried I became. I decided to not dwell on what could happen, but repeat to myself what will happen. I tell myself that this medicine will work and my body will accept it with no problems. I also have to depend on God to do what He does best, healing and saving people. What more can I do? Other that to pray and study His word.



Healed!



I have experianced a miracle in my life today. And am proud to say it. I truly believe that after a couple came and prayed for my lips to heal, during the next day my lips cleared up wonderfully! all the nasty scabs came off with no sign of them ever being there. Here is a couple of pictures just to show you the true miracle that God has performed on me. I am so grateful to Him.

The doctors have given us some bad news recently. I have considered it, and the more I thought about it, the more worried I became. I decided to not dwell on what could happen, but repeat to myself what will happen. I tell myself that this medicine will work and my body will accept it with no problems. I also have to depend on God to do what He does best, healing and saving people. What more can I do? Other that to pray and study His word.



How long can this last...But a nighttime.



Psalm 30:5 (New King James Version)



For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.

Monday, September 19, 2005

I am not posting a picture today. My lips are getting better, but for unknown reasons they look a lot worse. The swelling has gone down, so I can talk and drink more. Thank God! Today I ate a little bit of shake today which is a very good sign.

A lot of my family drove about 6 or 7 hours just to come and spend the weekend with me and comfort me. I feel very refreshed and am glad that they came. Hopefully they can come back soon.

The doctors say that they are getting prepared to do a bone marrow aspiration this week, so please pray for the results of this procedure. Pray that there will be no leukemia cells that I will be ready for the bone marrow transplant.

I am not posting a picture today. My lips are getting better, but for unknown reasons they look a lot worse. The swelling has gone down, so I can talk and drink more. Thank God! Today I ate a little bit of shake today which is a very good sign.

A lot of my family drove about 6 or 7 hours just to come and spend the weekend with me and comfort me. I feel very refreshed and am glad that they came. Hopefully they can come back soon.

The doctors say that they are getting prepared to do a bone marrow aspiration this week, so please pray for the results of this procedure. Pray that there will be no leukemia cells that I will be ready for the bone marrow transplant.

Sunday, September 11, 2005


Today is a good day for me. The mouth sores have not gotten too bad. They have me on morphine to help with the pain. But sometimes what's meant for good turns out to do more harm. The morphine has caused some constipation and an uneasy stomach. They are giving me nutrition via the IV line. The reason why I say that it is not bad, is because last year it got really bad, and I will not forget that. It's also been a while since i've eaten. I will not worry about that, I know that these sores will go away soon and I will be able to eat normally once again. I must continue to speak life to myself, as well as think positively, if I did not, I would probably be in this Hospital a lot more. But for now I am doing well. This IV nutrition is gradually giving me energy, energy that is vital to my health.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Today has gone well for me. The nasty taste in my mouth, probably from the treatment, and the raw mucus lining, from the treatment, are not much of an aid to my eating habits, but none the less am I eating. And for that i'm grateful. The weapons that I have chosen are not of this world, but that of God. I believe that the bible to be true, and intend to follow it and take comfort in what it says.


...With the whole armor of God, what war can't we win?...

Ephesians 6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005


Today is a day of rest. Even though I have been involuntarily at rest for the past week or so, it just seems as if the days have been going so fast though. I thank God for every day that I am alive, even if the day seems to be going nowhere.

It's Tuesday and I am feeling better and better as the days advance. It is almost as if in some way my body is getting used to the rigorous treatments and has gathered a rememberance of last years harsh treatments and has exploited the bad times as well as the good so that I may have a chance to better cope with all that is involed with ones treatment. I know God is working in my body as well as in my mind and through my soul. So I will continue to put my trust in God, and what God has promised for me in my life. Through this past year God has been feeding me with the food I need to survive this ordeal. If a person has fed himself unhealthy things, then when he gets sick, what will he have to get better? I am just living off of what God has promised me so far. And am enjoying every day of it.

My mom is here with me and it does not get so homesick.

I'm in the mindset of thinking big...


My mom and I just hanging out. Posted by Picasa

Monday, September 05, 2005


My leukemia was under control. I had achieved remission and underwent what they call a"maintenance" phase. I tried to start my life again. Reading and writing and spending time outdoors with family and friends. But one day it came back. I do not know why it came back. For one to think of a condition afflicting a child once is horrid, but twice! But somehow the time before my relapse had been spent interestingly. To look back can be only for a short while, but the things that I have learned through it is forever.

I'm ready for it. What do I have to be afraid of?

(Look how focused I am..Just try and get to me Chemo)

Psalm 27
Of David. 1 The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?