Saturday, October 29, 2005

2 Corinthians 5:6-8 (New King James Version)
6 So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord.
7 For we walk by faith, not by sight.
8 We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be
absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.
I arose early today in a joyful spirit. As I have learned, the devil does not sit well with this. I recieved a report from the nurse that my white blood count was at 100,000 today. This is the number that takes me off the study.

We will continue to fight. Continue to believe.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Today has been the day of answered prayers!!!
Two awesome things happened today. We recieved good news from the doctors that my white blood cell count did not increase any more than yesterdays number. Yesterday my mother and I went to Lakewood church here in Houston and I believe that God sent a woman there to pray for me and talk to me. She prayed saying that when I go back today to the hospital the counts will be fine. My mother also asked many of people to pray for me back home specifically for my counts. Today we went into the hospital believing for a miracle, and God did intervene.
Also because of the white blood cells increasing so rapidly there was much pain in my knees and right hip. It had come to point where it was very difficult to walk. It has been like this for a while, but just recently has it been the most severe...God again showed His mercy.
I was just sitting in my bed and at some point I noticed that my pain was gone(without morphine or medication) so I stood up and realized that God had took up my pain!!! Two unexplainable things happened...I even asked the doctor that medically speaking should have the white blood counts acted in such a way, and she NO!!! That goes to show that just because the doctors sometimes say some things just because they rely on what has happened in the past doesn't mean it will repeat in the future!!!
Thank you for your prayers.
Matthew 21:22
"If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Today I had a doctors visit as well as my blood checked. We received news that we did not expect. They told us that this new treatment has, up to this point, not worked. I know this news is supposed to bring sadness and doubt in our minds...But the same God who was with us before this news came up, is the same God who is with us now. The doctors gave me two options. The first was to continue with the treatment, and the second was to stop and to just continue with the traditional chemotherapy. I will continue to fight, for my faith in God still remains firm.

As you can imagine, this news was shocking but every day I am still grateful for what God is doing and will do in the future, for I believe that there is a future for me. I still must be patient for this road still continues. I am excited to see this testimony that I am going to have once this is all done with. I encourage you to study God's word, and hear it, and never lose your faith, whatever the "circumstance" may be, for there will always be difficult circumstances in our lives. Most people say "It's in God's hands" for all the small stuff, but when your life is threatened by an illness or by any force, it truly takes God himself for you to say the same thing as in the small stuff. Daily do I fight "reality", because reality is that there is a slim chance that I will make it much longer. Reality says that this medicine isn't working, just give up. But faith is knowing God's word, standing on it, and believing it to be done. I cannot "see" results, but the evidence of the healing we believe God has done is my faith. Will we not all experience our lowest point at one time or another in this life? Why not prepare?

Hebrews 11
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 2 For by it the elders obtained a good testimony's By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.

Monday, October 24, 2005

I am out of the hospital now and am currently resting and recooperating from my last procedures in order to prepare for my next procedures this Friday which include a bone marrow biopsy and a Lumbar Puncture. God blessed me with the health to go to church and to learn about Him. My family and I had, for the first time, went to a Nigerian church and was pleased with every part of the service.

During this expieriance God has taught me patience. From what it looks like, I will be away from home for quite some time. Even though this seems to be the case, and even though I am not to be in the hospital as inpatient unless something unexpected happens, the times that I am in the hospital, it is actually an enjoyable experiance. I am able to take part in the sharing of my testimony in order to bring hope through Jesus Christ to those who have no hope. Without God and His word, I truly believe that I would have no hope. The doctors have little hope in what they are giving me, and what hope can I put in people and things around me? What hope, what faith, is there in things, in an expiriment...unless you put God in charge of it and allow Him to work in you. I must be patient during these times. Very very patient. For there is more to come.

Galations 6:9
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

Saturday, October 22, 2005

This goes out to all Sharylanders back home!!!

Your not forgotten, I wear these clothes as much as possible. I really enjoyed the sweat jacket, it comes in handy up here.

Well, good news, they are letting me go from the hospital today! And even more good news that since I had no severe reaction to the new treatment yesterday, they will let me receive it outpatient. I do not have to go back for more treatment until next Friday, so until then I will be gaining strength and weight! But just thought I would share some good news.

The light of the eyes rejoices the heart, And a good report makes the bones healthy.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Thank God for protecting me today! They administered the first infusion of the new treatment and it went without problems. I was so glad after it was over and nothing of a bad effect had occured. I believe that this medicine will work and do what it's supposed to do and God will have His hand over it the entire time.

Early this morning they first pre-medicated me with benadryl and tylenol along with a drug called Ativan which is for anxiety. So I was pretty much knocked out for the whole morning, I did not awake until 3 in the afternoon.

My family came up to visit, here is a picture of my brother and I playing a game, he's going to spend the night here with my mom and I. It's almost as if we were back home. I am glad they are here with me.

Everything is well with me, I continually have to thank God for all that He is doing in my life, and thank Him even when things look bad because I know He says He makes the crooked paths straight and has a plan for all of us even though the situation in which we are at seems grim.

2 Thessalonians 3:16
Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means...

Thursday, October 20, 2005

The doctors have said that I am eligible for this new study. As I have mentioned before, it is apparent to me that to the observer there is not much hope at this point in the study for any of its subjects. But I remain hopeful. I remain joyful in this time of uncertainty. Hope and joy that cannot come from people, feelings, or a "positive attitude" but none other than that of God.

Many have told me that believing in "myself" will get me through this. Others have said that thinking I will get out of this, will get me out. I have tried all these things and more, and have learned that we as people cannot be cured of any disease merely by thinking we will. It might help, but ultimately is it not our Creator that has the final say in whether or not we will live? I do believe He gives us the answers in His Word. He tells us that He wants us to be healed, and how to be healed. Hope in medicine and the doctors have failed me, but hope still remains in God. If it is His will to work through the medicine they are going to administer to me today, then I thank Him for it. I thank Him for the doctors, but I do not put my hope in them that they will sustain me in these times.

I am thankful for the joy He has blessed me with, so that others in similar situations may see the joy and recognize that it is not just happiness, (for who can be happy in the face of death), but joy that comes from God.

Please keep me and my family in your prayers.

Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Time of Prayer...

When those around me including doctors and friends, have little or no hope, when they expect the worst, when they give words of despair...I know, it is a time for prayer. A time to rely on the word of God, for it is life unto me.

Please pray for the bone marrow test tomorrow. Pray that when the doctors look at it expecting to see the leukemia cells, that there will be none. This is what we, as a family, are believing for. But may it be God's will.

Philippians 4:6 (King James Version)

6Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.


I once heard something that I have remembered in my thoughts, a preacher said one day "Facts change, but the truth never changes."

John 8:31-32 (New King James Version)-

31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. 32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Thank God I'm finally home!!!
We have received so many blessings lately.
I'm enjoying every one of them.
Thank God!
Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good!For His mercy endures forever.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

This past week was a great refreshing week for myself and my family. I had a lot of visitors including family and the pastor from our home church. My brother and sister are shown here with me just hanging out in the hospital room. We had a great time walking around and just plain visiting with each other. My dad also came up so I've been visiting with him and enjoying the good outside food.

Good news from the doctors recently!!! They are slowly taking me off the IV medicines preparing for the possibility of letting me leave the hospital maybe even tomorrow or Thursday just to come outpatient on Friday. They even say I might be able to go HOME for a week!!! Please pray that everything will be well with me so that I might be able to leave finally!